Preston

April 17th would have been Preston's 8th birthday. It is amazing to see how much I have changed and learned in 8 years. I would hope that I could say that because of him I am a better person and have a greater understanding of the gospel and the plan of salvation.
I have learned that sometimes the things we feel are unbearable at the time, are the things that shape our characters for good or bad. I have learned that I can't go through life without the help of my Savior! I need him and am grateful that he loves me enough that he wouldn't want me to try. I have learned that life is fragile and could be taken at any moment, so we should embrace life, live it to the fullest, and make sure that our priorities are where they matter the most. I have learned that God truly does have a time line and if we can trust him, all will be well.
All though losing him was the hardest trial I have endured in this life so far, I would do it again for him. I am blessed to be his mother and I know he watches over and loves us. I know he is where God needs him and is doing a great work.
Today I took a blanket to the hospital for a mother who will lose a baby. I had this idea for his 1rst birthday and have taken a blanket each year since. I know he would be happy that his birthday is not a day of mourning for me, but rather a day to celebrate, and honor him in the service of others.
We also have the tradition to let balloons go at the cemetery for him. My kids like it, because they feel like we are sending Preston's birthday to him.
I am grateful for Preston and for the valuable life lessons I have obtained by having him in my life.
Preston I love you..............Happy Birthday Big Guy